The Hiding Spot

What is it up there it's shining and it's not it's like a starry night thought it's always the sun. maybe hiding back somewhere scared to come out and shine cause it's seen and heard and felt and went through so very much pain disappointment anger misery and then numb all the way numb hiding back there scared to shine so that's all you get now a happy starry night for you to cuddle under for you to see in his eyes and fall and fall and fall deep into his eyes his arms his starry nights ever scared to show ever scared to feel ever scared to tell but bold enough to love go on then just fall let fall hoping that he hates being so scared, too but can't help falling in love with you.

Every single time starting with the same hope a little sun starts shining everytime someone new's arriving the hope of change the hope to change the hope to love the hope to belong every single time you hope to get to know them better them you better and the hope keeps it alive until the point is reached that you can never avoid you love them they love you -still don't feel like you belong- -or fit in in whatsoever way- but you love them and happy that they do you with the biggest fear hiding behind and knowing that from this point on nothing good is left to find. 

Full with wonder but known forever like it's supposed to do as you do be as you are be where we are at the start line and already feels ahead with thousand steps to take to never complete the ride but I already know that you'll be the one -I need- and the one I want for many many many steps ahead and above with everything we do and that's the wonder of you.

One step too much, thousands too little. One step further, thousands behind. Everybody knows so do I that you don't let go one thing you find. Everybody hurts so do I though I keep knowing and you're still blind. hold on wanna go home hold on you're my home. trying to hold on with nothing to hold on to with noone to hold on to trying to hold on all alone been so long still so far trying to hold on all alone can't go on no more. hold on wanna go home hold on you're my home.