Hide and Seek

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Bir şeyi bulmak için önce kaybetmek gerek.       


Birbirimizin kafasının içine girebilme şansımız olsaydı eğer
Pişman olurduk yanlış kelimeyi kullandığımız için
En büyük yanlışlık
Buna şans demek.
Kendi kafamızın içine girebiliyoruz belki
Ama bazı beyinler var ki düşünen
Talihten nefret ettiriyor.
En büyük korkumuz,
En büyük korkumuz saniyeler sayıyor
Sadece gerçekleşebilmek için
Olursa şanslı görecek kendini
Ama bilmiyor ki
Kendi kafamdan korktuğum kadar
Hiçbir şeyden korkamadım.
Düşünen beyin
Fazlası özellikle
Dehşete düşürüyor istemese de
En büyük korkum
Kendi beynimle yüzleşmek
Onu dinlemek iken
Nereye gidersem gideyim
Bundan kaçamayacağımı bilmek
Hangi ben hangi yerde
Hangi ben hangi fikirde
En büyük korkum
Çatışmak
Onla bunla değil de
Hayata her saniye çetrefil getiren
Bilse de bilmese de
Kendi kafamın içinde.
En büyük korkum
En yakınımdayken
Delirmeyi çözüm olarak görüyor
Kendini yok edebilmek için.
En büyük korkum
Doğarken kim seçmiş
Annesini babasını
Güzel derler iyi derler de
Anne baba bir kenara
Tüm sıfatlardan sıyrıldığında
Geri kalanın ne olduğunu seçememekte en büyük hata.
Ah bir bilebilseydiniz şu küçücük alanda neler dönüyor
Korkan bir tek ben olmazdım.

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