Here We Go -I-

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Şimdi başlıyoruz.

Başladık.

Ben bendim,
en başından
anla
ben benim.
Olmayacak,
ben benim,
sen benimle
sen değilsin.
Ben
o değilim
aklında olan
ben değilim.
Biliyorum ama
öğretecek,
yanlış belki
zaten üç gün beş gün
bir günü varsın senle geçsin
ama geçen zaman
asıl olan
bir nefesi paylaştığın
geri dönüşü yok.
Üç gün beş gün
bir ömürden değerli
paylaşılınca
bir nefeste birleştiğin
aslolan
o yok.
Sen varsın
sen sensin
ben benim
bu da böyle
ama sende
ben değilim.
Olsun varsın,
sürsün geçsin
anlamlı değil artık
o üç gün beş gün
anlamsıza vereyim birkaçını
olsun varsın.

İşte başlıyoruz.

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