Delirious Cognition

Breakthrough.

Recognition.

What do you do after finding out

that the feeling you’ve known forever

is actually your over and over

reoccurring pattern

making you chase all the wrong ones

for a bunch of breadcrumbs

that make you feel worthy for a second

but keep you questioning for life.

What do you do when you find out

what you’ve known as love all this time

was just hurting all the ones

who could see through you

and still loved you just because.

How do you tell the person

you hurt them a while ago

'cause you thought there's something wrong

because they still liked you

after all that they found out.

How do you tell the person

that you thought they were perfect

but your compass wasn't correct

fueled by the feeling known all your life

because it was the loudest one

telling you they were the one

the feeling you thought was instinct

the feeling guided you throughout

the same loop

over and over and over and over

while you went round and round and round and round

spiraling back into the same center

with a different disguise.

How do you tell the person

that what you felt in your bones

was exactly the thing to avoid

to break your patterns

that always made your way to

the ones that left you paranoid.

How do you tell the person

that you now figured it out

and just left speechless

stunned by the loudness

thought all this time inclined

when you feel it, you feel it

thought that’s what's implied.

How do you tell the person

that what you felt in your bones

made you fall for the wrong

over and over and over and over

and if you just could've gotten out

of the loop spiraling around

you would've easily seen

that they’ve been right all along.